Fifteen has proven to be a very challenging age, caught right between a boy and a man. Never in a million years would I have thought that Kaleb would turn out to be a challenge, he's always been my saint child but I think he found it necessary to throw us for a loop. Once upon a time Kaleb was a quiet little boy that would sit for hours playing and never make a sound. Now you know the minute Kaleb enters or leaves a room; he's boisterous, funny, and not an ounce shy of loud. He stands 6 ft. 2 inches tall and weighs 165 lbs. He's out grown every ounce of baby fat that he ever possessed and is now sporting muscles that he often flexes in front of mirrors, company, or cameras. If I get in his way "NO PROBLEM" he just picks me up and moves me and then laughs about it. School is a mega struggle, it's hard to juggle studies and being a class clown. He's had just about every privilege revoked so that he might understand the power of an education. Needless to say having no door, stereo, tv, friends, extra curricular activities, or driving rights haven't turned his ways (as of yet). He's stubborn on so many levels I can't begin to explain them all. He has an attitude that I never envisioned and enough rebuttals to fill a book for dummies. Despite all of the challenging qualities that have surfaced over the last few months, Kaleb is also my savior! He's the first one that offers a helping hand when he sees me struggling. He will cook a meal, bath a sibling, vacuum floors, or tell me to go to bed at 9 o'clock. He wraps his arms around me out of nowhere and gives the worlds best hugs. He plays peek-a-boo and playdough like a champ. He will express his opinion or feelings when life is wearing on him and NEVER goes without saying thank you for anything we've done for him. He's still trying to find his place in this world. Where do I fit in? What does life have in store for me? He loves deeply and is hurt easily. He loves nature and watching all of the "life in the great outdoors" shows. He is intrigued by living in the middle of nowhere and living off the earth's natural resources. He's learned its ok to let go and that you can't change people. He's wise far beyond his years. He's not that bad of a driver either; even in the dark. The hardest pill for me to swallow is the fact that he doesn't need me as much anymore. The little boy that once stood outside of the bathroom door waiting for me is no longer there, in his place stands a young man that likes to jump out and scare the crap out of me. Kaleb, I hope that you always know your value. I hope you always know how much you are loved and how proud I am to call you my son. I hope that you figure life out and come out on top. I hope you take time to treasure all of the small things and know the value of hard work. Not a day on this earth shall ever pass that I won't be eternally grateful for you and the presence you bring to the world. I love you!
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