"I'm sorry......soooooooooo sorry"

Of all the days in the world, yesterday on Mother's Day I had an absolute melt down and looking back on it I know that I owe Kennedy an apology even though I know she has long since forgotten the battle. If you ever wish for that one day with peace and tranquilty, know that if you have children they will do the polar opposite of what you hope for. My wish for Mother's Day was a nice relaxing day with all chaos eliminated, not a huge wish but still too much to ask for. My kids don't know how to not pick on each other, we have exhausted all of our means in trying every element out there with basically no success. I completely understand that kids will be kids and don't expect 100% perfection 100% of the time but 30% would be ok with me regardless. Here is where the chaos comes in, Kennedy never gives me attitude in fact she is a gem in more ways than one in that department but unfortunately everything she doesn't give to me she gives to Paul ten fold and I had reached my max on the way that she was treating him. After a yelling dispute where she continuoulsy spat "you're not my father," my straw broke and I became a stamping bull in fighting mode. I called Kenn a disrespectful little $hit (after I threw her door open implanting the door handle firmly into her wall WHOOPS). I gave Kenn a firm dose of reality and how the words we say can cut people deeply and how "Im sorry" doesn't always heal the wounds we create. As humans we have a tendency to hurt the people that mean the most to us, because we know at the end of the day they love us enough to forgive. It wasn't long before Kennedy hung her head in defeat and I walked away letting her stew over her actions. After my blood had a chance to stop boiling I realized that I probably hurt Kennedy just like she had hurt Paul and that leaves a scar on my heart. Kennedy was laughing an hour after the matter and had forgotten everything but that doesn't change my mind from going over the things that I said to her. One day Kennedy, you will read this probably a long time from now after life has handed you a multitude of crazy things and you've had your ups, downs, trials, and tribulations like we all do. I hope that you are able to look back and see a lesson behind the downs and pick your head up and know how much you are loved. Kennedy, I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings and left a scar it was not my intention.